I understand how you must feel, but you have nothing to reproach yourself for. You did everything in your power for this nice man. You shouldn't feel bad about it. I'm sure he'll understand the situation. He'll be very proud of you for all that you've done for him babes, so try not to dwell on that you wern't by his bed side at the time of his death. He knows your a lovely person and he won't be upset that you wasn't there. At least you was with him while he was living. You obviously brought alot of joy into his life. So if you ever feel sad, think about the good times with him, when he was happy. If you dwell on not being with him at the end it'll drive you crazy. So try to let it go, even though it is very hard to do xx
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